it's exhausting, really, pretending to be nice and interested in what people have to say ALL.DAY.LONG. I'm sure Shannon can relate to me on this, as can anyone of you who has ever worked in a service industry. There are days when I'm tired or sick or just in a rotten mood, and switching on and off to "happy crappy" mode is a real drain. The upside of it is, however, that sometimes pretending to feel good and be in a good mood positively affects the way I actually feel.
today wasn't really one of those days. I woke up with my right eye all swollen and nasty (allergies?) and one of those related ever-so-slight headaches that doesn't really warrant medication but which dogs you constantly--sort of taunting you from the edge of conciousness. People were rotten today, but in retail you just can't be rotten back, so I'd don the cheerful interested girl face and chat away. The effort of being nice in the face of nastiness just wore me down even more. The puffiness went down, but the headache remained, and the exhaustion set in. I could collapse into a ball of neediness at any given moment.
maybe I will...
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I don't have even a fraction of the patience it must take. BUt I can see that millions of people must feel exactly as you do, and somehow force themselves to keep at it.
On the other hand, you could try a career in politics, where you could be nasty-as-you-please at least once every election cycle.
Collapsing in a ball of neediness sounds like a great plan.
Do it.
You deserve it.
You've earned it.
oh sweets, i TOTALLY know of what you speak. it's okay to just collapse every so often. when you wait on people all day, there is something great about going out to eat and being served (and treating those servers with so much kindness because you know what they are going through)...
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